naïve wishes (positive)

[Melooon]

I had my usual yearly chat with my dad where I show him my projects and he tells me they are good but they are not genuine enough, and not quite unique enough, and not quite as good as what I could do when I was 6 years old - and I tell him I'm working on it and next time around I'll have put a little more soul into them - but he's getting older and I wish I could get there before its too late and make something where the answer is just, "yes that's it, that's the one, you got it right, that's the one that will last" 

I'd like to make people laugh more, and I'd like to take myself less seriously. I'd like to be able to talk to people so that they walk away feeling good about themselves, and important, and safe.

I'd like to be able to afford an apartment that isn't the cheapest one in the city for once; one that isn't shared so I have own kitchen where I can leave out spoons and no one gets annoyed because I left out spoons 

I applied for an arts residency in Japan recently and I'd love to be accepted for that for a few months - I've always wanted to return there.

I'd like to be able to say interesting and thoughtful things right at the moment I need to say them, instead of about 2 hours after the right moment 

I'd like to allow myself to be in love again because I'm worried I'll forget how if I leave it too long