things came to a full circle, and i return

[ainoumi]

i dont think i was very widely known before i had deleted my first account. either way, i remade my melonland forum account under a different name (sharkplushes), hung around a little like that, and well... after some thought and talks with my close ones: i, umi, return!

for those who didn't know me before; i am a creative of varying mediums, and i stream as a VTuber (WELL, i will be soon enough once again, im dealing with Life and a massive toothache...)

i also write my own site and have been writing my own site and doing indie web stuff for... a while now, actually. 6 years? give or take? you can view my site here, i just relaunched it recently. please note it is for an 18+ audience only!

the site isnt too fleshed out quite yet. im working on it ^^;

to give a bit of a summary of what happened with me and why i almost completely stopped doing what i love... it boils down to two main reasons;

• i was biting off way more than i could chew
• because of the above, i was scared of royally fucking up.

pardon my language...

petrified with fear, i tossed everything away and tried to live life as a "normal" person, so to speak. even though there was absolutely NOTHING "normal" about me to begin with. during this period, i did some self discovery, switched to linux, had some of my alters fuse back into me (i am a DID system), and had some talks with my friends and partners. in the end, i came to a few conclusions;

• i am only a human being.
• i am a disabled human being at that
• if i DO mess up, its most likely something that i'll laugh about later.
• no one expects as much out of me as i expect out of myself (AND THAT IS WONDERFUL!)

so here i am now, back at it again. im glad to be here!

(and if you seriously read all of this, thank you. you didnt have to, but you did, and you're awesome for that.)

[CrispySeaBreeze]

Nice!! Glad things are finally coming together for you (o゜▽゜)o☆ I'm also a VTuber so I totally get the "biting off more than you can chew" part LMAO
I checked out your site and I love that your whole model is on the side, nice colors!!! Nice to meet you Umi! ^_^)/ 

[ainoumi]

Nice!! Glad things are finally coming together for you (o゜▽゜)o☆ I'm also a VTuber so I totally get the "biting off more than you can chew" part LMAO
I checked out your site and I love that your whole model is on the side, nice colors!!! Nice to meet you Umi! ^_^)/ 

thank you~! its nice to meet another VTuber on here! :D

[Noah_S]

I remember you. Welcome back!

One thing I like about the indie web is that it's a place for "messing up". Things don't have to be perfect. You don't have to keep yourself marketable to an algorithm. If you've only ever posted digital art of animals, it's fine to suddenly post traditional art of a large watercraft. There's no algorithm shadow-banning you if you take a break to take care of your health.