what's a song you HATE, and why?

[whalefall]

and i don't mean hatred of the song's musicality, i mean emotional hatred.

for me, it's No Children by the Mountain Goats.

my reasoning? this was my ex's favorite song, and/or a song he legitimately identified with, and it infuriated me, because he took it quite literally. i loved him more than anything in the world, and he hated himself, and he hated me, and even though he might've cared about me at one point, he left. he left without saying a word. no, it was worse than that. he asked me how i was, i replied, i told him, i did what he asked, and then...nothing. and there's this line, in that song, that goes, "And I hope when you think of me years down the line / You can't find one good thing to say." i hate this song, this song crushes me, because it's a reminder of him, and i can still find good things to say. some part of me still loves him, and always will, and despite that, he gave up on me. and yet....i remember, one time he was over at my house. as always. i never went to his apartment. we were in my room. he saw a few books he used to read, as a kid, on my bookshelf. and suddenly, his eyes widened. he looked at me, excited. he was grinning like a...kid, like he'd been transported back to that time, he was actually happy, it was one of the only times i ever saw him smile at all. that's a very good thing.

i hate that fucking song because it will always remind me of a really messed-up & really beautiful person.

it will always remind me he's gone, and i will never see him again.

[haumeaGeth]

Gee whiz, Whalefall, that's so sad. I'm so sorry you're carrying that in your heart

I think, for me... Maybe Butterfly, by Smile. I do genuinely hate that song musically. It's adjacent to music I do like, yet it sounds so grating. And that's why I hate it emotionally, too (well, maybe not hate, but it makes me feel uneasy.)

That was one of my high school ex's favourite songs. It really shows just how wildly I misunderstood that relationship, how I didn't really treat him right, and how completely and totally mismatched we were. I can forgive myself to some degree because it was high school, we were just stupid kids, but it's really frustrating to look back on with the wisdom I have now. I don't hold any love for him, but from one human to another, I hope he figured himself out.