Whats your life like? (Time Capsule Thread)

[small_cypress]

I'm in a new city, with a friend staying with my from my old smaller city. It's my first visitor since I've moved here and I'm glad I know enough places to show her!

My spouse and I are really enjoying Dan Da Dan. I am doing a "Small Web July" - trying to avoid corporate websites - and have been slipping a bit with Reddit, my vice. I have no drama in my life at this stage and I go looking for other peoples' - bad habit.

I'm not a real contemporary art person but I saw and exhibit of Jenny Holzer's work that cracked me open a bit.

I am having an artistic crisis but maybe that means I should become more receptive to viewing art than making it right now.

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Right now I am thriving! 2023 has been a great year for me, I've grown up a lot and finally started to feel like I am living more than just existing. When I graduated last year, I fell into a slump where I was staying at home all day every day, since I didn't have my license and was terrified to even try to learn how to drive.

In March of this year, I got my first job as a busboy. I was pretty slow and very anxious in the beginning, but over time I feel like I've become quite good at it, if I do say so myself  . My sister started teaching me how to drive on the way to work, and over the next few months I slowly started to relax and feel confident in my driving skills. I passed my driving test last week and got my license!

My mental health has also taken a turn for the better. I recognized some unhealthy behavior (spending all of my time online in circles full of negativity and discourse, wanting people to like me all the time and taking even the lightest bit of criticism to heart, feeling bad for enjoying things people deemed as "cringe") and started working on ways to improve my mental and physical heath by making changes (working out, leaving those online circles, enjoying the things that I like no matter how "cringe", doing things for myself and not just to seem likeable others).

My next goals for the future are to get a new job closer to where I live (hopefully one that's more enjoyable than cleaning tables, LOL), start taking college classes, and to figure out more about myself, what I like, what I want to do. I also want to make friends, since I'm coming more out of my shell instead of being isolated at home.

One year ago, I was the most depressed I've ever been. This year, I'm the most happiest I've ever been. I've still got a long ways to go, but I have my entire life ahead of me to accomplish everything I want to. I hope the future me who's reading this post is happy wherever she is :o).

Two years have passed since I made this post and things are even better than ever. I haven't posted on MelonLand for a while now, but I remembered I left a reply on this thread and wanted to see what exactly I wrote. Surprisingly, it was a positive comment! 2023 was definitely when my life took a spin for the better; I was extremely depressed for most of my life prior.

I enjoy driving now. I got my car in November of 2023 and although it was terrifying driving on my own, it was exhilarating to finally be able to go where I want whenever I want. My car is an old model and every month brings a whole new problem to deal with. I'm looking into buying a newer one soon, hopefully. I'm also still at the same job, although I've become an absolute beast as bussing tables. I enjoy it as much as I can, but I still want to find something closer to home. And something that feels more rewarding, somewhere I get more respect from people (customers are insane).

Internet-wise, I've left behind the negative mutual circles and found myself a nice community based around a game that brings me a lot of nostalgia. I feel much happier with them than I ever have on previous websites and groups.

On another note, so so so much has changed this year. I fell in love in January. We kissed the first night we met each other, and were inseparable since then. I moved in within the next few months and just a few days ago they proposed to me. The very first night I met them, I felt such a strong connection to them; I felt comfortable talking to them about things I never told anyone. It genuinely feels like I found my second half. I'm so excited to marry them.

I hope the future me who's reading this post is happy wherever she is :o).

I really am. I hope the future me who reads this post is still happy, wherever he may be.

[batgal]

I'm at a bit of a crossroads in my life right now.

Nothing major or negative, in fact quite the opposite. I spent quite a long time struggling and scraping by to achieve the amount of stability/love/happiness that I have in my life right now. My partner and I have finalized our immigration status (which was a big stressor for us for the last few years), we're financially thriving and both working good jobs, we have plenty of time for fun and down time...

Now, everything is how it's "supposed" to be... and I guess I'm having a bit of trouble finding the passion/drive to buckle down and focus on what's next?

Feels kind of silly to say, but I guess I just don't know how to "live" without a major existential crisis breathing down my neck! But I am grateful to have this kind of problem... a first world problem if there ever was one, ha. Still, I want to make sure that I use this time and stability wisely, and I guess that's where I get stuck sometimes. A lot of my goals now feel larger than life, distant and hard to conceptualize in a step-by-step way.