Whats your life like? (Time Capsule Thread)

[batgal]

I'm at a bit of a crossroads in my life right now.

Nothing major or negative, in fact quite the opposite. I spent quite a long time struggling and scraping by to achieve the amount of stability/love/happiness that I have in my life right now. My partner and I have finalized our immigration status (which was a big stressor for us for the last few years), we're financially thriving and both working good jobs, we have plenty of time for fun and down time...

Now, everything is how it's "supposed" to be... and I guess I'm having a bit of trouble finding the passion/drive to buckle down and focus on what's next?

Feels kind of silly to say, but I guess I just don't know how to "live" without a major existential crisis breathing down my neck! But I am grateful to have this kind of problem... a first world problem if there ever was one, ha. Still, I want to make sure that I use this time and stability wisely, and I guess that's where I get stuck sometimes. A lot of my goals now feel larger than life, distant and hard to conceptualize in a step-by-step way.

[akyra00]

shit

i live with my parents, am a total loser, cant find a job, i dont go outside, i have only a few people who can bear me, my meds dont work like they used to, we grew up poor in an appartment and we are still poor. i eat the same food everyday and i dont enjoy anything atp. stuck in the past because i cant comprehend the new time, with ai and its bullshit. i dont feel like living anymore. I dont feel like dying either. idk what i want. to be a kid again maybe...

[axlraimi]

Ohhhhh boy. Not very cool.
I have a dog, I live with my mom, stepdad and grandma. My grandma has dementia and I'm afraid of her death, my stepdad is extremely right wing and annoying.
I'm going to uni, on my third year of it- I'm studying screenwriting and cinema, and I'm eternally afraid I'll never find a job. I am also desatisfied with the career for this fear, and maybe because I just hate some of the people in it and it feels repetitive. I just want to get over with it, get my title and go.
I deal with alot of anxiety everyday about getting older and living life like an adult, and I also am a really, really heavy smoker.
Currently I like gorillaz. Sometimes the only way to get myself out of bed is to think about murdoc screaming at me to wake up. He's my ''oshi''! (in oshikatsu culture.)

I'm just living life day by day. I have no idea what I'm doing.

[SadOldMan]

i live with my parents, am a total loser, cant find a job, i dont go outside, i have only a few people who can bear me, my meds dont work like they used to, we grew up poor in an appartment and we are still poor. i eat the same food everyday and i dont enjoy anything atp. stuck in the past because i cant comprehend the new time, with ai and its bullshit. i dont feel like living anymore. I dont feel like dying either. idk what i want. to be a kid again maybe...

I feel you, man (or girl). I'm in a pretty similar state of mind, although I'm not living with my parents (but I go to their place every week end because I need to be connected again to my hometown, my past, and so on). I've a job that I hate, I hate most of the people I have to talk to in a day, and I have no perspective in life, excepted waiting for some kind of miraculous liberation - I don't even know what exactly. I'm single with no kids but it's not the cause of my unhappiness ; I know it would be a same if I were a "pater familias". Something even more fundamental is missing.

[⋆DizzyLizz⋆]

honestly i hate being all negative but things are pretty bad in my life right now .  I devolped agoraphobia from a very traumatic event in my life that occured a few years and i cant go outside too much because im so afraid of everything and i often get horrible panic attacks, ive been offered a job but i was unable to make it to the interview.

I have a few friends but im afraid they hate me now because i dont speak to them very often or hang out at all. im also failing school pretty bad because of mental illness and some other things. i have no idea how long i can live constantly stressed and dissociating completely detached from reality or my own body. for now tho im still here and plan to be for as long as possible. at one point or another i may need to be hospitalized as i no longer feel i can keep myself safe on my current circumstances(i wont go in depth as to why)

Despite all of this strife, being isolated gave me time to think, and i finally accepted that im trans, i knew i was a girl for 5 years, i remeber coming out to a freind i had who lived somewhat far, but i was afraid to tell my therapist or parents,anyone close to me irl who would notice if i decided to present more fem at the time as i didn't have to words to describe how i felt and many of my male friends at the time would have excommunicated or bullied me.

I told my therapist a few days ago and it felt great to just put it out there and be accepted in someway. it just feels right to have people address me with the name or pronouns im comfortable with, which isn't very common because im not very far into transitioning.

I also joined a community of furries in my city they do meet ups semi frequently, ive been doing exposure stuff for my anxiety sorta on and off and ive gotten a bit better with going out. just hope i don't chicken out..yet again whenever the next meet up is

Perhaps in a year or two or four. I can update this and say im doing a bit better and finally living my life and maybe even start hrt at some point. transitioning is going to be hard but ik it will be worth it if i can live happily as myself for once :3

[flowerrobin]

I live in a big city in the UK (not London), and I'm currently in my final year of uni that I commute to. I split my final year into half because I couldn't handle the workload and it's worked out well for me, but I'm sad that my classmates I was with for 3 years have all graduated and moved on. My classmates this year are all nice, but it's not the same. I can't wait for the grind of studying to end. I applied to university 4 times over the span of a decade, and it feels like it was fate that I ended up at this one studying what I am studying.

Right now I'm still living in my parents house but at least I have my own room that I decorate how I want. I've never lived by myself before which is kind of weird for someone my age. I've been on a few overnight trips with friends but I've never lived entirely alone for an extended period of time. I'm hoping after I graduate I can land a good job somewhere (maybe London) and move out! I've only worked zero hours jobs for most of my adult life, minus the apprenticeship that paid me £3.20 an hour, so it'll be nice to finally get an actual job.

[windit]

Two years have passed...

This was so lovely to read! It inspired me to make a post, thinking that it will be nice to look back once time has passed.

 

I am currently living in a 4-bedroom house in the suburbs, high up on a hill, surrounded by native bush, with three friends and my dog. I'm taking things day-by-day as I work to understand and recover from long-covid. Life is very transitional - or about to be - right now the days can be quite slow.

It's Spring and the days shift between hot sun and hail storms. I'm getting into noticing the clouds. I have a boyfriend who lives in a village one hour's drive away, so we see each other every week or two. It's nice.

Last week my health was feeling good and I started making some possible plans for next year - I applied for a job, and also applied to do some study. This week my health has crashed again, and I've had to cancel all of my short-term plans, so it's hard to imagine how I can plan ahead for next year. My mental health is much better than it was last year when I first became sick, but I'm treading carefully because I know I can get really dark and hopeless when things feel out of my control. I'm trying to treat myself like I would a good friend. 

I'm starting to spend more time on the internet, which - after years of trying to get offline - I see as a healthy way of staying social and creative while I'm stuck at home more often. I tend to go into the city or out to visit my boyfriend in the weekends. I have a lot of friends in town and I wish I could see them more often, right now my physical energy makes socialising in person hard. 

There are three books beside my bed that I requested from the library, and two more coming in the mail. My favourite thing to do is read a book in the sun while drinking my morning coffee.

Our landlord told us we'll need to move out in February, so the future is uncertain. My friends and I are searching for another house together, but I'm also considering moving back out into the country and living alone nearer my boyfriend. I've never lived totally alone before and I think that could be really great, but living with people is also probably 'good for me'. I've set up a small shrine to the goddess Hestia on our fireplace to help us find a safe new home. 

Whatever happens, I have been through so much change in the past, and even though I've been craving stability I trust future-me will roll with wherever she ends up next. YOU'VE GOT THIS AND I LOVE YOU XOXOXO

 

   

[fablefound]

it's november 1st, a little cloudy and dreary, and my partner and i are just settling down to spend a bit of time working on our personal projects before cozying up with a late lunch and some belated spooky movies.
my play is opening on the 8th--a play i wrote, which is going to be formally staged and produced!!--and i'm not sure what i want to do next, but i'm cautiously optimistic that there's exciting stuff coming. i'm also hoping to start filling out my address book so i can send out christmas cards this year :) life's good. i'm a little groggy and under the weather, but life's good.

[H0ppin_H00ligan]

I am an unemployed 20-year-old woman living with my mother and older brother; i have social anxiety disorder (though medicated), take horseriding lessons a couple times a week and am currently trying to make money selling character design adoptables on a character-sharing website called toyhouse (i also have a kofi account though i'm too shy to make it public yet). I have a dog named gracie, 4 cats named honey, silver, comet and sable and 3 geese named milly, chippers and yoshi.

I spend most of my days on the internet (though i would like to restrict my screentime a lot more) and i try to write in my diary everyday (...or at least if something noteworthy happens) at around 8pm. My hobbies include art, writing, video games and maintaining my own website, H0ppinH00ligan.neocities.org, though some hobbies i'd like to try one day are doll customization, 3D modelling and 3D animation.

[jetSpin]

living with my parents and bf in the middle of nowhere in the midwest. currently unemployed. just got my drivers license a few months ago and enjoying the freedom. working on getting my GED and gonna apply to art colleges. hoping to go to massart in boston. feelin fine. wishing you all well!

[eternalworm2008]

i used to be extremely depressed and would do mostly nothing all day, i was barely scraping by in school, if that. i rarely practiced my hobbies, such as drawing, which prevented me from improving. i ate whatever street food my dad would bring home, since we didnt feel like cooking anything. generally my life was very boring and repetive. i live in the shithole that is mexico, i fucking hate it here but its not like i have much of a choice.

in october i sent myself to a psych ward, the ward itself was pretty boring and bad, it felt like a prison, i expected it to be more like a group home, sort of like girl interrupted, lol, i see now its bad to expect real life to act like a movie. anyways afterwards i got medicated, im on zoloft, and instead of being debilitatingly depressed im more neutral than anything, i cant really focus on doing tasks much better than i used to but atleast im no longer depressed.

i now live with my unoficial step mother, who cooks me her offensively mediocre meals that i tolerate. i go back to school next tuesday. and im soon going to be taking ritalin. which should help with the demotivation problem. things are looking up i suppose.

my plan for the future is to move in with my e-husband in chile in like 2 years, we love each other and it should be a nice. comfy life for the relative future. i have no grasp on my long term future. seems kind of bleak.