HELLO. I AM BANGING ON THE WINDOW OF THIS THREAD AND BREAKING DOWN THE DOOR WITH THAT STUPID S7 SLAYER SCYTHE. I AM SO INCREDIBLY HERE.
Buffy the Vampire Slayer was (unfortunately, given its creator) unbelievably formative for me. To give you some idea: I spent pretty much the entirety of
I Saw the TV Glow sobbing my eyes out - because I, too, was a deeply lonely queer teenager who coped by hyperfixating on Buffy the Vampire Slayer. I have very vague plans to make a webshrine for it - only I'd like it to also constitute an in-depth critical analysis. It would probably also end up being an intensely personal piece of writing. So I keep putting it off!
Some quick and hopefully provocative hot takes (there will be spoilers; also while I am being a little intense about it these are all just my opinions and you are more than welcome to disagree):
1. Series 5 is the best, but series 6 is my favourite. If series 6 had stuck the landing with its finale, it would probably supplant series 5 for me. Alas, while
Two to Go/
Grave has a lot of the right ingredients, it completely fails to deliver the necessary catharsis. Give me Willow and Buffy screaming the most hurtful things imaginable at each other! Give me Willow and Buffy inflicting the kind of wounds you're only capable of after six years of deeply intimate and nebulously gay friendship!! I want it to feel as interpersonally apocalyptic as the Buffy & Anya fight in
Selfless does, but
MORE and
WORSE!!! I am convinced that s6 would be a hundred times more popular if it delivered on this - it's basic
Aristotlean theory of drama! You can't do a tragedy without catharsis, that's the entire point!
2. Spike is the kind of god-tier character that can only be produced via five different writers in furious disagreement about what direction should be taken with him. You can't make a character this good on purpose. You just can't. That particular blend of sex symbol + romantic lead + comic relief + villain + pathetic loser + narrative punching bag just hits different.
3. Relatedly, everybody should read the
Lesbian Spuffy Manifesto - it's probably the best piece of fandom media analysis I've ever come across
4. Over in Angel - Doyle and Illyria are so so so so SO satisfying as a diptych. Character who is only here for the first nine episodes of the show and character who is only here for the last eight episodes of the show. Characters who, between them, perfectly encapsulate the core themes of Angel (when it's at its best): doing the right thing even when it will cost you everything, and having to continue when you have already lost everything and there is no hope of ever getting it back.
Not Fade Away lives in my chest like a physical ache to this day. It's so incredibly beautiful and so incredibly sad. (Absolutely no ill will towards anyone who headcanons otherwise but this is why I am very hard-line on 'no, actually, they did very much all die at the end of that. MAYBE Illyria survived but nobody else stood a chance. Buffy will not be ending up with Angel OR Spike because they are both DEAD.' Anything else undercuts the beauty of that ending.)
5. Spike/Buffy is the ship of all time for me, they were the first pairing I ever truly shipped and they hold an incredibly special place in my heart. Forever shaped the kinds of relationships I go crazy for in fiction, and if I ever publish the novel I am working on, that is going to be extremely evident! As the Lesbian Spuffy Manifesto touches on - Spike is Buffy's Jungian shadow, all the parts of herself she does not want to acknowledge, and I think there is something so profoundly transformative and beautiful in the idea of falling in love with somebody who represents everything you most hate about yourself.
6. That said, I am very much a multishipper at heart, and I also adore Faith/Buffy, Willow/Buffy, Willow/Anya, Willow/Faith (specifically post-s6, for obvious reasons), Cordelia/Buffy, Cordelia/Angel, Spike/Angel, and the Fanged Four as an unspeakably toxic polycule.
7. The comics are not real and cannot hurt me.