Whats your life like? (Time Capsule Thread)

[small_cypress]

I'm in a new city, with a friend staying with my from my old smaller city. It's my first visitor since I've moved here and I'm glad I know enough places to show her!

My spouse and I are really enjoying Dan Da Dan. I am doing a "Small Web July" - trying to avoid corporate websites - and have been slipping a bit with Reddit, my vice. I have no drama in my life at this stage and I go looking for other peoples' - bad habit.

I'm not a real contemporary art person but I saw and exhibit of Jenny Holzer's work that cracked me open a bit.

I am having an artistic crisis but maybe that means I should become more receptive to viewing art than making it right now.

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Right now I am thriving! 2023 has been a great year for me, I've grown up a lot and finally started to feel like I am living more than just existing. When I graduated last year, I fell into a slump where I was staying at home all day every day, since I didn't have my license and was terrified to even try to learn how to drive.

In March of this year, I got my first job as a busboy. I was pretty slow and very anxious in the beginning, but over time I feel like I've become quite good at it, if I do say so myself  . My sister started teaching me how to drive on the way to work, and over the next few months I slowly started to relax and feel confident in my driving skills. I passed my driving test last week and got my license!

My mental health has also taken a turn for the better. I recognized some unhealthy behavior (spending all of my time online in circles full of negativity and discourse, wanting people to like me all the time and taking even the lightest bit of criticism to heart, feeling bad for enjoying things people deemed as "cringe") and started working on ways to improve my mental and physical heath by making changes (working out, leaving those online circles, enjoying the things that I like no matter how "cringe", doing things for myself and not just to seem likeable others).

My next goals for the future are to get a new job closer to where I live (hopefully one that's more enjoyable than cleaning tables, LOL), start taking college classes, and to figure out more about myself, what I like, what I want to do. I also want to make friends, since I'm coming more out of my shell instead of being isolated at home.

One year ago, I was the most depressed I've ever been. This year, I'm the most happiest I've ever been. I've still got a long ways to go, but I have my entire life ahead of me to accomplish everything I want to. I hope the future me who's reading this post is happy wherever she is :o).

Two years have passed since I made this post and things are even better than ever. I haven't posted on MelonLand for a while now, but I remembered I left a reply on this thread and wanted to see what exactly I wrote. Surprisingly, it was a positive comment! 2023 was definitely when my life took a spin for the better; I was extremely depressed for most of my life prior.

I enjoy driving now. I got my car in November of 2023 and although it was terrifying driving on my own, it was exhilarating to finally be able to go where I want whenever I want. My car is an old model and every month brings a whole new problem to deal with. I'm looking into buying a newer one soon, hopefully. I'm also still at the same job, although I've become an absolute beast as bussing tables. I enjoy it as much as I can, but I still want to find something closer to home. And something that feels more rewarding, somewhere I get more respect from people (customers are insane).

Internet-wise, I've left behind the negative mutual circles and found myself a nice community based around a game that brings me a lot of nostalgia. I feel much happier with them than I ever have on previous websites and groups.

On another note, so so so much has changed this year. I fell in love in January. We kissed the first night we met each other, and were inseparable since then. I moved in within the next few months and just a few days ago they proposed to me. The very first night I met them, I felt such a strong connection to them; I felt comfortable talking to them about things I never told anyone. It genuinely feels like I found my second half. I'm so excited to marry them.

I hope the future me who's reading this post is happy wherever she is :o).

I really am. I hope the future me who reads this post is still happy, wherever he may be.

[batgal]

I'm at a bit of a crossroads in my life right now.

Nothing major or negative, in fact quite the opposite. I spent quite a long time struggling and scraping by to achieve the amount of stability/love/happiness that I have in my life right now. My partner and I have finalized our immigration status (which was a big stressor for us for the last few years), we're financially thriving and both working good jobs, we have plenty of time for fun and down time...

Now, everything is how it's "supposed" to be... and I guess I'm having a bit of trouble finding the passion/drive to buckle down and focus on what's next?

Feels kind of silly to say, but I guess I just don't know how to "live" without a major existential crisis breathing down my neck! But I am grateful to have this kind of problem... a first world problem if there ever was one, ha. Still, I want to make sure that I use this time and stability wisely, and I guess that's where I get stuck sometimes. A lot of my goals now feel larger than life, distant and hard to conceptualize in a step-by-step way.

[akyra00]

shit

i live with my parents, am a total loser, cant find a job, i dont go outside, i have only a few people who can bear me, my meds dont work like they used to, we grew up poor in an appartment and we are still poor. i eat the same food everyday and i dont enjoy anything atp. stuck in the past because i cant comprehend the new time, with ai and its bullshit. i dont feel like living anymore. I dont feel like dying either. idk what i want. to be a kid again maybe...

[axlraimi]

Ohhhhh boy. Not very cool.
I have a dog, I live with my mom, stepdad and grandma. My grandma has dementia and I'm afraid of her death, my stepdad is extremely right wing and annoying.
I'm going to uni, on my third year of it- I'm studying screenwriting and cinema, and I'm eternally afraid I'll never find a job. I am also desatisfied with the career for this fear, and maybe because I just hate some of the people in it and it feels repetitive. I just want to get over with it, get my title and go.
I deal with alot of anxiety everyday about getting older and living life like an adult, and I also am a really, really heavy smoker.
Currently I like gorillaz. Sometimes the only way to get myself out of bed is to think about murdoc screaming at me to wake up. He's my ''oshi''! (in oshikatsu culture.)

I'm just living life day by day. I have no idea what I'm doing.

[SadOldMan]

i live with my parents, am a total loser, cant find a job, i dont go outside, i have only a few people who can bear me, my meds dont work like they used to, we grew up poor in an appartment and we are still poor. i eat the same food everyday and i dont enjoy anything atp. stuck in the past because i cant comprehend the new time, with ai and its bullshit. i dont feel like living anymore. I dont feel like dying either. idk what i want. to be a kid again maybe...

I feel you, man (or girl). I'm in a pretty similar state of mind, although I'm not living with my parents (but I go to their place every week end because I need to be connected again to my hometown, my past, and so on). I've a job that I hate, I hate most of the people I have to talk to in a day, and I have no perspective in life, excepted waiting for some kind of miraculous liberation - I don't even know what exactly. I'm single with no kids but it's not the cause of my unhappiness ; I know it would be a same if I were a "pater familias". Something even more fundamental is missing.

[⋆Spicy_vinta⋆]

honestly i hate being all negative but things are pretty bad in my life right now .  I devolped agoraphobia from a very traumatic event in my life that occured a few years and i cant go outside too much because im so afraid of everything and i often get horrible panic attacks, ive been offered a job but i was unable to make it to the interview.

I have a few friends but im afraid they hate me now because i dont speak to them very often or hang out at all. im also failing school pretty bad because of mental illness and some other things. i have no idea how long i can live constantly stressed and dissociating completely detached from reality or my own body. for now tho im still here and plan to be for as long as possible. at one point or another i may need to be hospitalized as i no longer feel i can keep myself safe on my current circumstances(i wont go in depth as to why)

Despite all of this strife, being isolated gave me time to think, and i finally accepted that im trans, i knew i was a girl for 5 years, i remeber coming out to a freind i had who lived somewhat far, but i was afraid to tell my therapist or parents,anyone close to me irl who would notice if i decided to present more fem at the time as i didn't have to words to describe how i felt and many of my male friends at the time would have excommunicated or bullied me.

I told my therapist a few days ago and it felt great to just put it out there and be accepted in someway. it just feels right to have people address me with the name or pronouns im comfortable with, which isn't very common because im not very far into transitioning.

I also joined a community of furries in my city they do meet ups semi frequently, ive been doing exposure stuff for my anxiety sorta on and off and ive gotten a bit better with going out. just hope i don't chicken out..yet again whenever the next meet up is

Perhaps in a year or two or four. I can update this and say im doing a bit better and finally living my life and maybe even start hrt at some point. transitioning is going to be hard but ik it will be worth it if i can live happily as myself for once :3

[flowerrobin]

I live in a big city in the UK (not London), and I'm currently in my final year of uni that I commute to. I split my final year into half because I couldn't handle the workload and it's worked out well for me, but I'm sad that my classmates I was with for 3 years have all graduated and moved on. My classmates this year are all nice, but it's not the same. I can't wait for the grind of studying to end. I applied to university 4 times over the span of a decade, and it feels like it was fate that I ended up at this one studying what I am studying.

Right now I'm still living in my parents house but at least I have my own room that I decorate how I want. I've never lived by myself before which is kind of weird for someone my age. I've been on a few overnight trips with friends but I've never lived entirely alone for an extended period of time. I'm hoping after I graduate I can land a good job somewhere (maybe London) and move out! I've only worked zero hours jobs for most of my adult life, minus the apprenticeship that paid me £3.20 an hour, so it'll be nice to finally get an actual job.

[windit]

Two years have passed...

This was so lovely to read! It inspired me to make a post, thinking that it will be nice to look back once time has passed.

 

I am currently living in a 4-bedroom house in the suburbs, high up on a hill, surrounded by native bush, with three friends and my dog. I'm taking things day-by-day as I work to understand and recover from long-covid. Life is very transitional - or about to be - right now the days can be quite slow.

It's Spring and the days shift between hot sun and hail storms. I'm getting into noticing the clouds. I have a boyfriend who lives in a village one hour's drive away, so we see each other every week or two. It's nice.

Last week my health was feeling good and I started making some possible plans for next year - I applied for a job, and also applied to do some study. This week my health has crashed again, and I've had to cancel all of my short-term plans, so it's hard to imagine how I can plan ahead for next year. My mental health is much better than it was last year when I first became sick, but I'm treading carefully because I know I can get really dark and hopeless when things feel out of my control. I'm trying to treat myself like I would a good friend. 

I'm starting to spend more time on the internet, which - after years of trying to get offline - I see as a healthy way of staying social and creative while I'm stuck at home more often. I tend to go into the city or out to visit my boyfriend in the weekends. I have a lot of friends in town and I wish I could see them more often, right now my physical energy makes socialising in person hard. 

There are three books beside my bed that I requested from the library, and two more coming in the mail. My favourite thing to do is read a book in the sun while drinking my morning coffee.

Our landlord told us we'll need to move out in February, so the future is uncertain. My friends and I are searching for another house together, but I'm also considering moving back out into the country and living alone nearer my boyfriend. I've never lived totally alone before and I think that could be really great, but living with people is also probably 'good for me'. I've set up a small shrine to the goddess Hestia on our fireplace to help us find a safe new home. 

Whatever happens, I have been through so much change in the past, and even though I've been craving stability I trust future-me will roll with wherever she ends up next. YOU'VE GOT THIS AND I LOVE YOU XOXOXO