how my lifes been going lately

[eternalworm2008]

i used to be extremely depressed and would do mostly nothing all day, i was barely scraping by in school, if that. i rarely practiced my hobbies, such as drawing, which prevented me from improving. i ate whatever street food my dad would bring home, since we didnt feel like cooking anything. generally my life was very boring and repetive. i live in the shithole that is mexico, i fucking hate it here but its not like i have much of a choice.

in october i sent myself to a psych ward, the ward itself was pretty boring and bad, it felt like a prison, i expected it to be more like a group home, sort of like girl interrupted, lol, i see now its bad to expect real life to act like a movie. anyways afterwards i got medicated, im on zoloft, and instead of being debilitatingly depressed im more neutral than anything, i cant really focus on doing tasks much better than i used to but atleast im no longer depressed.

i now live with my unoficial step mother, who cooks me her offensively mediocre meals that i tolerate. i go back to school next tuesday. and im soon going to be taking ritalin. which should help with the demotivation problem. things are looking up i suppose.

my plan for the future is to move in with my e-husband in chile in like 2 years, we love each other and it should be a nice. comfy life for the relative future. i have no grasp on my long term future. seems kind of bleak.

[Dequake]

I'm sorry to hear that things have been tough. But it seems like things are turning up for you, which is good! Life is weird. It can go up and down at unexpected moments. What's important is not to lose sight of the things that makes you happy. Now with your new medications maybe that path becomes more clear. Two years is a long time to wait for a solution, so I hope you can find motivation in the meantime to keep doing the things you love, and build your life for the long term, even if you don't know how it might look right now! Stay strong, we're all rooting for you :)

[eternalworm2008]

I'm sorry to hear that things have been tough. But it seems like things are turning up for you, which is good! Life is weird. It can go up and down at unexpected moments. What's important is not to lose sight of the things that makes you happy. Now with your new medications maybe that path becomes more clear. Two years is a long time to wait for a solution, so I hope you can find motivation in the meantime to keep doing the things you love, and build your life for the long term, even if you don't know how it might look right now! Stay strong, we're all rooting for you :)

i hope its true,,,i aim to learn programming, i learned some html but now my focus is on c++, i want to make a videogame. i plan to make a first person shooter with an extremely excessive HUD that has multiplke things you have to focus on at once, i think that would make for a fun game i think, i would play that game.

[⋆DizzyLizz⋆]

I would like to say that things are starting to look a little brighter for me.

I made a very close friend in novemeber who is now my romantic partner irl and we have cuddled many times!!(we have been dating for about 3 weeks now) I'm also starting to take care of myself a little bit more as i plan on starting hrt in 5 months .

still a lot of hiccups in my life but i think im getting a bit better and starting to take things day by day along with my anti depressants hehehe

[AbsurdPirate]

i hope its true,,,i aim to learn programming, i learned some html but now my focus is on c++, i want to make a videogame. i plan to make a first person shooter with an extremely excessive HUD that has multiplke things you have to focus on at once, i think that would make for a fun game i think, i would play that game.

A really accessible engine for hobbies is Godot, I personally love it, and GDScript is far easier to learn than C++ if that sort of thing interests you.

I'm making my game in Godot and I honestly find it more fun of an engine to use than Unity or Unreal.