random thoughts/how to be less broken

[candycanearter07]

hi so like ive been reading some other posts on here and it kinda inspired me to go and write my own again and i know ive already made a few of these kinda posts but stuff is still bad

like physically im ok but like mentally everything is falling apart sorta like idk i wish i could work on projects but im stuck in a "go with the flow" kinda workstyle where i can only work on stuff in passing and cant ever go back to fix anything and i cant start anything new and i cant stop feeling jealous of people who can and i really want to let go and just make something but my brain is stupid and like idk waht do i do

[ThunderPerfectWitchcraft]

What I can recommend: Set yourself fixed times were you work on a set project. It doesn't need to be long, but it is important that the time is really free and that you use it for said project. It doesn't need to be time were you are fully free - currently, I've myself fixed to use the time I have in public transport to use for writing instead for reading. The limited access to the internet is actually a benefit here, as it stops me from checking more and more sources :).

[Melooon]

At a glance, I'd say it sounds like the things your working on are not really the things you want to work on, so you should stop and find things you actually like (that's not always easy admittedly  ).

There are many things I've started that I felt like I should do, that didn't make me happy in any way, and made me feel bad for not really wanting to do them; cutting them loose was almost always the best choice I could make because it freed up space for things I actually wanted and couldn't see before.

That aside, your brain, your emotions and your focus are all the same as muscles (or habits if you prefer that analogy); if you use them well they get stronger over time, if you don't they get floppy. So, feeling like things are falling apart (they are not) or feeling jealous of what you cant do (what other people do is nothing to do with you); that suggests you have floppy emotions You cant force your brain to do what it cant do, or what it does not want to do. You can work with it though, its not fixed.

How you actually do all that though is something you have to figure out for yourself. Some people meditate, some people read psychology books, some people go mountain climbing. Knowing you want to change is a good step, but its also very easy to make a thread asking for advice; the actual work of doing it though is all on you 

[candycanearter07]

At a glance, I'd say it sounds like the things your working on are not really the things you want to work on, so you should stop and find things you actually like (that's not always easy admittedly  ).

How you actually do all that though is something you have to figure out for yourself. Some people meditate, some people read psychology books, some people go mountain climbing. Knowing you want to change is a good step, but its also very easy to make a thread asking for advice; the actual work of doing it though is all on you 

i do get some enjoyment out of those things tho and  i dont know if i could find anything else to work on if i did quit everything and id feel guilty

and like i have 0 idea for what would "work for me" and ive tried some stuff already and it hasnt helped and idk what to even do and stuff

[sunnyp4rk]

What I do when I'm in a rut is try to do something I've never done before, or something that isn't my main hobby. For example, artwork just isn't something I can easily do now, so I've been trying to do more photography instead. When I'm ready to go back to drawing, it'll be when I'm ready.

Alternatively, if your hobby is something you can take outside the house (like drawing, gaming (if its a handheld game), reading, etc.), go to a library or a park, and do it there. A change of environment could help. I would say there is such thing as the area around you affecting the things you like.

[arcus]

Work on your mental health, or at least try to understand how it effects you in detail and figure out how to work with it. By the sound of it, you're looking for a solution without addressing the root of your problems. If you're struggling with your mental health there's not going to be a magic method that will let you power on through.

What do you dislike about your posts? Is there a specific reason why you want to polish older projects instead of going with the flow?