It's not that I think that shows aren't interesting and it's not even my attention span (well, sort of). I have started many, many shows and animes before but I've only finished one anime which was 12 episodes long.
The amount of times I've re-watched shows but never finished them is too high of a number. Like House MD, My little Pony, Hunter x Hunter. I can recognize the arcs and episodes from just a few frames but lord forbid you ask me to finish the last few seasons.
It's the same with movie series or book series. Say Harry Potter. I've re-watched every movie except the two Deathly Hallows because I've never watched them. I've got the book for Christ's sake. It's such a pain in the side that I've recently just been avoiding series in general.
It's not that I get bored of a series or that I can't focus while watching one. Hell, I've pulled so many 'all-nighters' when I would watch a show. But when I have to take a break and come back to it later is when it starts to get difficult to continue watching. I must have no breaks in immersion in order to have the genuine physical capacity to continue to watch something. Once my mind gets busy with something else, I start to become physically repulsed at the thought of going back to where I last was to continue.
Reading books have become harder because of this, but once I get back into that flow state, I'm able to fly through it no problem. It's mostly the getting back on track and just being able to actually like turn on the show or open the book that's in the first place.
If it's not that, it's either the change between seasons/books or the personal hype dying out. Say Abbott Elementary. When I first got into the show I watched it until the the last available season. I wasn't aware that there were more coming out. When it did, I found that the change in dynamics and the different time frame was extremely difficult to get back into. I'm incredibly averse to change when it comes to media that I enjoy. Even if the humor and style never changed, It's wasn't my Abbott, you know?
Or say, Demon Slayer. During the pandemic, the production was postponed and there was only one season. I re-watched it like a mother fucker. But even though the style, dynamics, or characters didn't change much directly after, the fact that the first movie and other seasons came out after my initial hype that made it difficult to continue the show at all.
My hype also isn't related to trends. I started Mob Psycho only recently⏤years after it's initial popularity⏤but soon was interrupted in my binge streak that week that my own hype for it died and I never finished it. It's frustrating that shows that I still am interested is so hard to pick back up. Whenever I find that show's I've finished in the past got a new season, I feel genuine dread because I know I'll never watch it.
It's hard not to be able to relate to anyone and share love for a show or book series because it's already difficult for me to pick up a book or movie I want to watch in the first place. Just recently I accidentally started the first book in the series without realizing it. I just feel horrible because I found the summary of the next one super interesting but I just know that it won't be read by me.
Should I find it in myself to start finishing series or should I avoid series like the plague? I like one shots and short stories a lot and I'm hoping that's not just because my past socmed usage gave me symptoms of ADHD.
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