I'll join.
I've been doing light excercise daily, and I'm working towards eating less pre-processed food.
random post: I feel like there's too much complex philosophical essay stuff online for my burnt out brain to handle. Like i have to use so much brain energy to really get it that i sometimes start getting that pins and needles feeling all over, like when you block your blood flow in your arm or leg by sitting on it, and then you get up and ur arm feels like BZZZZZZZZZZZ. is it okay if i wish there was more simple english stuff so i didnt have to use so much brain power, cuz i feel better using that stuff tbh
Start with Simple English Wikipedia articles. There's companion books for most philosophical writings, you can try those after Wikipedia. You could ask questions here and someone would be able to answer.
I don't usually think too much about my diet or try to moderate it. I usually just.....eat whatever, y'know? It seems to be fine for me since I had such a high metabolism, but idk. I'm severely depressed, so maybe there's something I'm doing wrong. As for meditation, it doesn't seem to have that huge of an effect on me. There's been several times when I've tried meditating while feeling anxious, only to just continue feeling anxious all the way through and continue overthinking once I'm done. I don't know why this so-called miracle works so well for everyone else on the planet, but not me.
Since you don't go out often, it's possible that you're lacking in vitamin D. It's worth getting a blood test for it and zinc. Zinc helps with absorbing vitamin D. If you're low in zinc, it effects how well you absorb it.
If you do start taking supplements, go for vitamin D3 and be careful with zinc. Some zinc tablets have high doses: 15 mg is ideal, while 30 mg is near the upper limit. Supplements won't cure your depression or anything, but it will make things less worse after about a week or so.
Meditation can really vary with neurodivergence and mental illnesses. There's other methods you could try, but it doesn't work for everyone. I've never gotten it to work myself.
All that said, it's natural to be depressed in a situation like yours. I read your blog, and I hope things turn up for you.
I've recently become more aware of things like vitamin and mineral deficiencies. I used to not buy into the hype of supplements because I was afraid it's all unnecessary and a waste of money as long as you eat normal, relatively healthy food, but after getting blood work done a couple of times the last few years I realised it's often necessary to supplement a little.
So just a tip that it might be worth looking into these things as they can affect energy levels and mood also.
Things like vitamin D and iron (ferritin) can really affect general wellness and are very common deficiencies.
You probably know a good bit about all this, but I feel the need to elaborate for anyone else in the thread:
Supplements are falsely advertised. They're there to help with deficiencies, and not much more. That's not to say they're not important, however.
Even if you do eat food with all the nutrition you need, it's possible that you're not absorbing it properly. Vitamin C―commonly found in fruits and juices, can hinder the absorption of other vitamins, if taken around the same time. Being deficient in certain vitamins/minerals can effect how you absorb other ones. Some disorders can effect absorption. The list goes on.