I went outside at dusk today! there were bats! more than usual, swooping low over the park, some small, some a bit larger. they are miraculously acrobatic. if you are quiet, you can hear them. I like the way the sunset looks on their small brown bodies. I think they have a beautiful shape to them. my boyfriend's mom has a very large, very orange moth living in her car that she has named Mothra. she has such beautiful wings! and she's so big, so fluffy!
I think, if you pay attention to it, the universe will reward you for this interest in it, in some way. maybe in some spiritual way, or maybe just in the fact that the act of observation is rewarding. i have received many such rewards.
I started collecting litter. not to throw out, but to photograph and post on instagram. I'm obsessed with litter. I received some gifts that are only cool if you also, like me, love litter, like a receipt from a bar on the other side of the country!
just think of the journey that went on! but ive found other "litter" as well. stuff more people would enjoy, I think. like toy dinosaurs, those weird fancy glass stones people put in vases or use as wedding decorations. and! and! ~200 VINYL RECORDS mostly of 1960's folk/country (my beloved
... no phil ochs in there though
) also 13 cds and 2 laserdiscs which i gave to my dad cause he was really excited about them. I also found a random dvd half buried in the ground and I'm tempted but a bit scared to try to see what's on it. if it's not too scratched from being half buried...
honestly had a bit of a magical moment there listening to one of the records with my friend.
the world wakes up when you sit down to look at it. cyanide millipedes and garter snakes flash striking yellow-on-black. hoverflies, and butterflies landing on you if you are still enough. the dark-eyed juncos expertly catching an insect mid-air. the dragonflies, the insect moults I find. (exciting cause it's cool but it also means theres a bigger insect out there somewhere...) all the edible plants with fascinating mythologies behind them. varied thrushes and fleeting warblers. the sheer diversity of pigeons, their behaviours. if you watch pigeons for long enough, you see everything. love, conflict, life, death. there was a pigeon nest, hidden in the centre of a train station. the tell-tale squeaking of baby pigeons just barely hovering over the din of people and escalators and trains if, and only if, you stopped and listened. it's always there. you will find it someday, your little pigeon nest, sheltered within the noise and overwhelm. if you only look for it.
rainbows, too are everywhere. I see them on the train platforms, from the light through the glass barriers, I see them in fountains, on car windshields, through windows, on my friend's glasses. I was collecting them, documenting each one I fpund, but I had to give up because when I started looking for them, I saw to many to ever save them all. rainbows will be everywhere, if only you look for them!